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Funny how i found myself having those red-rimmed eyes after talking to my mom on the phone. She was giving me details about Abah Salleh's death plus some sad stories which revolve around the las few weeks of Abah Salleh's life. I just couldn't stop those tears...i am not that sengal after all..especially in family cases. But the best of all is that..Abah Salleh was smiling when he passed away tho he was actually unconcious[coma].

A few things that i learnt from this incident:

1)A mountain of money is nothing..zero..[satu ape pon tak gune]...when you abandon you parents' needs and luxuriously use it on your own

2)Spending lots of money just to set up the tomb so that it looks nice is somehow..mm i cant see the point...especially when the money shouldve been used to cater the needs or make your parents happy when they were still alive.

3)Love your parents..love your parents!!!!!!


"Doctor tak payah laaa bagi saya kluar wad.saya nk duduk hospital..kalo saya kluar wad pon anak-anak saya bukn sayang saya.diorg tak jaga saya..diorg biar je.kat sini ada org jaga"

*tears* =(

b l u r r

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i need some unconditional love from familiar faces back at home...thats all

New Year Resolution!

my life's boring.boring.boring.

work.gym.my room.internet connection sucks~

but in a week's time, i'll start having a real break from everything..well not really everything but most probably, most of the things~ then only i'd have the time to fix and rescedule my life circle.
my room is not messy anymore now but my life is. Everything is somehow mixed up causing me to feel very confused about so many things. I changed my mind about everything all the time. I am no longer sure of what i want, what i really want, what i should get, what is important, which is the most important, what am i searching for, what am i aiming for, what are my dreams, what do i want to do with life and who i am

Abah Salleh[my uncle] passed away yesterday morning. I received a call from dad at about 3.30 am and i couldnt sleep anymore after that. It was like a slap on my face...how fast time flies. Today is abah Salleh's turn..now when is mine? What have i been doing all these while? Have i used the time i have in this world wisely..or am i one of those who are 'dalam kerugian'?How much time do i have left...What would happen if i die now?Will i go to heaven or to hell? I kind of know the answer =( I mean..i think so...

Too many things are running through my mind at the same time. I usually find myself having different aims and visions of life at times. The truth is i dont know what i want...I really don't. Follow your heart..some people say. Then i will..

Hopefully i'd get the strength i need from the Almighty..I'm lost.

Officially Poppily!

Guess what?i officially owned a cat ;) POPPY!

at first i wasn't that certain as i dont know whether of not Poppy would be hanging around at my house frequent enough in order to assume that he wanted to be owned by me...but then one morning; around two days after Kak Ina and co left, i thought of Poppy. I went straight to Kak Ina's ol house and called for her..Poppy ! Poppy! Dramatically, Poppy popped out from the bush and ran like mad towards me. It really felt like we were in a movie or something, you know those sentimental moment where ol lovers meet each other again? yeah~it was like that. I quickly guided her to Fatin's house but sadly, we didnt have any sorts of food which is considered as Cat Food. Looking at those weary eyes, and muke lapar Poppy i became weak, i pleaded Fatin to sacrifice one of her chicken wings to Poppy.. [Fatin tgh goreng ayam!]

'Fatin!bagi la satu ayam ko kat Poppy!nanti masok syurga ko tau bagi makanan kat kucing yg kelaparan'

Hihi, with an angelic smile, Fatin kindly handed me her favourite chicken wing to be given to Poppy!Poppy refused to eat it tho..so i had to shread the wing into pieces in order to make that manja kucing feel like eating it~aish~

The next day, me FAtin and Hannah went to Chatswood! On the way home, i confidently bought a box of Whiskers for poppy! I think i finally found what i've always wanted ; A Cat , A real black cat;POPPY ;) i'm so happy!

Sudah Terang Lagi Bersuluh

why would some people fight over stuff which its stand is 'sudah terang lagi bersuluh'?

does it make you feel better when you could actually twist the words and phrases that in
the end it looks as if you were on the right side?but dont you feel like you're lying to yourself?
You know the truth well, but you are just too proud to admit it...
The truth is the truth...lying about the truth wont change reality...its like covering your zit
with a concealer...the zit will still be there, you know it..it just looked as if it wasn't there..
but you obviously know that its there..

Why look for faults when you can see the goodness shooting you rite between the eyes?

Dont ever assume stuff..because your assumptions might be far ahead from the truth

Ear Estacy

What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do?
What if I fell to the floor?
Couldn’t take this anymore
What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do? (do, do)
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I’m not running from you

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You’re killing me, killing me

All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance
I know now, this is who I really am

Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you
Look in my eyes
You’re killing me, killing me

All I wanted was you

Come break me down
Break me down
Break me down

What if I wanted to break?

Big Twist

My fun life is practically dead rite now actually.

My day would normally start off by waking up late or early [depends on the night before:letih ke tak] to my work place. I am usually assigned to work for 8 or 9 hours a day for 5 days a week which means that i'd have to go to work in the morning and arrive back at my door step when its already dawn or sometimes at nite. I'd feel dead tired as i got home as i had to stand for that whole 9 hours..maybe 1/2hour of sitting while i'm having my lunch.

i'd take my bath~perform my prayers, go online for a while for a little entertainment so that i dont feel like a loser; working all day without any keseronokan duniawi.

I'd sleep, a painful sleep as my whole body muscles ache resulting from the heavy[literally] workloads i received at my work place. My legs and back hurt the most....

Whats to become of me? Why do i sound so tortured?if not tortured...mmm takde life. Plus i think i'm becoming more plum than usual[which is weird because i havent been eating well].

So out of nowhere, today i decided to change my life schedule. I registered my name for the 3months-gym-promotion deal and started working out again at the gym! It felt so good as if i was doing something right, something which i shud've done earlier[and i guess it's true]. Since its an unlimited pass, i think i should go to the gym everyday which means that some things have to be sacrificed in order to make my planned schedule runs as i expected. No more, YM-ing before going to work. No more late nites 'merepeking' on the net and watching sappy korean movies or drama series[if i was going to work on the next day] because i'll have to sleep early at around hmm 10 maybe?i would want to wake up earlier most probably mmm try not to sleep after the Subuh prayer and go to the gym at 7..work out for an hour and balik rumah and mandi n rest for a bit before heading up to work? Well how does that sound?Healthy isn't it?

Huhu imagine if i managed to follow that schedule for the whole 3 months!phew~i'd be angelina jolie by then haha~

yer selamat mencuba cik jaime.

what love is?

Love is:
*Describing to your mom what kind of baju kurung you want for
the next year's raye but just to find out that its already
on its way to you one week after.

*Missing your housemate even when she is still in her room
packing her bag.

*Feeling like you want to buy the whole shopping mall just to
shower your family with
presents

*Saying that your sister is 'lembab' and 'malas' but
secretly having faith in her.

*Caliing your mom to talk about nothing but gibberish stuff
and still feel like it's the
best conversation ever

*Buying late birthday present because u want it to be
perfect ;)

*secretly caring without telling